I need a new laptop so badly. I’m gonna take my friend up on that offer of a Mac for $550 that her friend is selling. Hopefully he still has it in June, which is when I can afford it. Posting from my phone is such an arduous task.
I hate having to go to a job every morning that I absolutely loathe when all I really want to do is submerge myself in all my misery. Just stay in bed with the blinds shut until the pain subsides.
It sucks that I can’t let you go right now. And though I know it’s the best thing for both of us, it still hurts that we spent a year together…ultimately for nothing. Talking to you right now only proves how much of a masochist I truly am, so I need this time to myself to heal. But I know spending the weekend with you around next week will be incredibly uncomfortable.