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lettersto-savemyself: Depression (119/365)

Sun, 19 May 2013 15:49:52 -0400

Depression (119/365)

Miscellaneous Ramblings #15?

Sun, 19 May 2013 15:40:24 -0400

1) Sizzle week is fast approaching. I’m leaving from here to go to Florida on the 24th straight to the airport from work. I can’t WAIT to have fun, shop and see my best friend and this guy she’s supposed to set me up with.

2) I have a cold sore that I’m glad came last week. I think in 2-3 more days, it should be gone. Since I can’t have any of these anymore, I’m taking every preemptive measure possible. Finally gonna start taking supplements.

3) My body has changed slightly since I started using P90X. It hasn’t changed that dramatically since I wasn’t doing it everyday, but I am definitely more toned. But I have to ease up a bit. Made my back pain worse by doing regular pushups instead of lady ones.

4) My ex will be in Florida the same time as me. Hopefully, we won’t have to run into each other. We’re good, but I just want to make it through the weekend without having to see/think about him.

5) The swimsuits I ordered for Sizzle are a little racy, but I love it. About time I show some skin. I’ve always been so self-conscious about my thin frame. And yes, Ill be surrounded by some serious bodies, but I don’t care anymore. It really is time I start living.

6) The 23rd will make two months since I’ve had an alcoholic beverage. The 24th, I will be shitfaced.

7) I’ve been watching these Death Battle vids on YouTube that pairs comic book/manga and video game icons with each other to see who would come out victorious. And everything is analyzed and dissected to the T. If you’re a fan of shit like that, you should definitely give it a go.

8) I have so much shit to do this week before my trip.

a)Laundry and dry cleaners

b)Get car rental sorted

c)mani/pedi

d)massage

e)dentist

f)haircut and dye

g)hair removal

h)pack

9) My tattoo’s healing nicely. I really do love how it looks and what it means for me. All of my tattoos, I realized, are just reminders to find strength and to rid myself of negativity.

10) I wonder if I should go to the beach to get a bit sunkissed.

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Tue, 14 May 2013 23:02:48 -0400

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Tue, 14 May 2013 00:39:14 -0400

livinglifewithderek:

http://tinyurl.com/cdzzb2l

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Tue, 14 May 2013 00:31:14 -0400

"The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting..."

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:30:53 -0400

“The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.”

- Ernest Hemingway (via cameronjohn)

gardeniasandgoldchains: [A photo of nude Black woman with red...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:19:18 -0400

gardeniasandgoldchains:

[A photo of nude Black woman with red afro hair who is seating, smoking a cigarette and basking in the sunlight coming in through a window.]

curly-essence:

sterlingsea:

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Sun, 12 May 2013 19:24:10 -0400

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Sun, 12 May 2013 19:22:28 -0400

black-culture: sincerelymona: Abdia Abdi Khalil and her son...

Sun, 12 May 2013 19:16:06 -0400

black-culture:

sincerelymona:

Abdia Abdi Khalil and her son Hameed, Somali refugee camp, Mandera, Kenya, 1992

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Sun, 12 May 2013 13:45:30 -0400

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Sun, 12 May 2013 13:45:22 -0400

I’m usually scouring the blogosphere for out gay athletes,...

Sun, 12 May 2013 13:37:32 -0400

I’m usually scouring the blogosphere for out gay athletes, just to stay in the know. Happened to come across a former NFL player, Wade Davis, who played running back for a few teams between the years of 2000-2003. The video above features The Hodge Twins: YouTube “celebrities” most known for their rants on different issues (social, political, nonsensical). And in this case, they posted a video giving “insight” on Wade Davis’ coming out Full Nelson video interview.

To be honest, I’ve never watched an entire video. And this video is testament as to why. They go on to call Wade Davis a “selfish motherfucker” for not coming out sooner, I guess to be a beacon of hope for any gay athletes struggling with their sexuality. While I guess I can understand the point they’re trying to make, I really can’t view these two as anything more than assholes with a video camera and severe crowding.

How any straight person can expect a gay black man, an athlete at that, involved in a testosterone driven sport, to instantaneously come out the minute he sets foot in the league is beyond me. Because of the heteronormative and predominantly homophobic society we live in now (though we are making strides for more gay acceptance), gay men often feel the need to hide their true selves. And this is when it no longer becomes an issue of honesty but an issue of fear. Fear of being verbally abused by strangers, fear of being physically attacked. If homohate didn’t exist, imagine how much easier it would be for people to come out and be comfortable with themselves and people who matter most to them. But until then, we have idiots, like these two, on the outside looking in, forming asinine opinions and debasing the courage it takes for any gay person, especially a gay black athlete, to admit publicly, that he’s gay.

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Tue, 07 May 2013 22:35:01 -0400

Ali Esteem: You can hurt someone without the intent on hurting them. Like you have...

Tue, 07 May 2013 22:28:15 -0400

Ali Esteem: You can hurt someone without the intent on hurting them. Like you have...:

luvyourselfsomeesteem:

You can hurt someone without the intent on hurting them. Like you have to stop for a second and realize what you’ve done to them. You played with them, lied to them, put them second place and now that person will never again in life see you the same was at the first time they met you. You can…

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Tue, 07 May 2013 22:25:36 -0400